Sitting here I can’t even mentally
fathom that in just a few short hours I am going to be back in the United
States. Back into my own context and to the people and things that used to be
comfortable to me. I am so nervous. I am nervous that I have changed so much
that it will be hard for me to relate to what used to be mine. I’m nervous that the people I love won’t
understand the things I’ve seen and why I feel the way I do and that I won’t be
able to relay it to them even if they do what to hear it all. I’m nervous to be alone (even if it is only for the few hours
of my travels home), I have been with 15 people all the time for the last four
months. I am scared that I am about to graduate college, I have this new
knowledge (but still don’t even understand or know so much) and I now have to
apply it to a real job. How do I do everything that I have seen, heard and
experienced justice; can I?
I am sitting at the airport in Nicaragua
waiting to board my flight back to the states. I can’t believe it’s over. The
last four months were possibly the fastest four months of my life. They were
intense and wonderful. I made friends that I will forever cherish. As I am
sitting her reflecting over the whole semester and all of the incredible people
we spoke with and things that I learned; apathy is no longer an option. I have
to take the things and I have seen and heard and make changes. I know that as
one little person I will never change the world, but what I can do is make
changes in my daily life and live a life that reflects and respects the type of
life that I want to live. The massacre testimonies we heard, maquila factory
workers the war torn communities, they all entrust their stories in our hands
with the promise that their story go untold.
I have learned more in these four months here in Central America than I
have learned in my entire four years of college. While there are certainly beautiful
pictures of the places we have been, that is not what this semester was
about.
I
remember after my first trip to Central America I thought, wow there is so much
that I could do to volunteer there and be of help to the people there. I was
wrong. The greatest help that I can be is becoming an advocate for better U.S.
foreign policy particularly towards LA but the rest of the world. The power
that simply being a United States Citizen holds is huge. I know that alone I
would not make an impact but I know there are many organizations and people out
there already organized and working towards a greater world with greater
equality. I cannot wait to get started finding my place in the crazy world,
where and how I can serve a purpose.
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